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VESSEL

VESSEL

We’re in the middle, it stretches on

Empty spaces all day long

We’ll shatter silence when we’re done

Cause I’m your vessel and you’re my song

 

I’ve been breathing so deeply

Letting life come naturally

It’s a struggle to see clearly

With every fiber I build a bridge to where I wanna be

 

It’s like parking past a moving car

You lose all sense of your perspective

Am I falling back or standing still

I guess it’s all subjective

 

Tell me something, is this wrong

Every care we thought was there is gone

It’s not a race but we won’t be outrun

Cause I’m your vessel and you’re my song

 

We’ll get to where we wanna be…

 

 

GO GETTER

Grief’s a sheet of tin foil that I crush inside of me

A story to be told in every fold and every crease

I’m smoothing out the edges, cutting corners piece by piece

But I can barely breathe

 

Anger is a sickness and it’s boiling in my blood

So I seethe into the void that’s left behind with every thud

Of the door that leads to healing, when I come close, it swings shut

Well I’ve had enough

 

Try to give it time, life will teach you how to live

You just have to live it for a while

 

Oh, pull it together; oh, shake off the pressure

Oh, sometimes you gotta burn it down to build it better

Love it or hate it, it’s now or never, you gotta be a go getter

 

Sorrow took you over like a cloud above your house

Though you built it for your burdens, more were coming unannounced

I brought flowers for your garden but the weeds still choked them out

Like a seed of doubt

 

Hope was sending signals, but you couldn’t see the signs

You had spent your whole life driving all those thoughts out of your mind

With your foot pressed to the pedal, you decided it was time

What did you leave behind

 

Try to give it time, life will teach you how to live

You just have to live it for a while

 

Oh, pull it together; oh, shake off the pressure

Oh, sometimes you gotta burn it down to build it better

Love it or hate it, it’s now or never, you gotta be a go getter

 

And if I leave it all to hindsight, is there anyone to blame

And if I tell you that I’m sorry, can I leave behind the shame

You should’ve pushed through the lie, you should’ve given it time

But who am I to preach when I can’t even say goodbye

 

Oh, pull it together; oh, shake off the pressure

Oh, sometimes you gotta burn it down to build it better

Love it or hate it, it’s now or never, you gotta be a go getter

 

 

 

WILDFIRE

Ivy climbs the walls and nestles in the brick

Sparrow builds a nest above the front door

The newest heartache’s on the radio again

No one’s listening anymore

 

On Independence day we were driving through the hills

We were on our way to Bozeman

The reds and blues of fireworks in backyards lit the sky

We were so much greener then

 

Who knew we were drunk on borrowed time?

 

Waiting on a wildfire, who knew we were

Waiting on a wildfire, who knew we were

Waiting on a wildfire?

 

In late September we had just moved into town

We were on a mission, lost and broke

Just as all the pieces started falling into place

All our plans went up in smoke

 

Who knew we were drunk on borrowed time?

 

Waiting on a wildfire, who knew we were

Waiting on a wildfire, who knew we were

Waiting on a wildfire?

 

Ivy climbs the walls and nestles in the brick

Sparrow builds a nest above the front door

And over time the wildflowers find a way to bloom

Where only ashes were before

 

Who knew we were drunk on borrowed time?

 

Waiting on a wildfire, who knew we were

Waiting on a wildfire, who knew we were

Waiting on a wildfire, who knew we were

Waiting on a wildfire?

 

 

 

 

ROLLERCOASTER

I woke up on a rollercoaster

Heart inside my head, chest was full of dread

In a moment, thought my world was over

Did I make it up, or was I really at the pinnacle?

 

So I slept right through it, hit the pavement, kept on running

Eyes are heavy, thoughts are heavy

 

Now the wave is crashing down, down, down, down

Now the wave is crashing down

 

When I woke up, I was in the air

Suspended in a daze, with creases on my face

In my pocket, felt around for crumbs

To feed the gnawing hunger, I started sucking on my thumbs

 

So I slept right through it, hit the pavement, kept on running

Eyes are heavy, thoughts are heavy

 

Now the wave is crashing down, down, down, down

Now the wave is crashing down

 

I notice patterns more than ever

In every truckstop subway sandwich, every midnight motel lobby

Every time I wash my face off, every time I text “I’m sorry”

In every prepossessing person, in every grinding repetition

In every time I put my face on

 

In every hand I put my heart in

 

Now the wave is crashing down, down, down, down

Now the wave is crashing down

Now the wave is crashing down, down, down, down

Down…

 

 

MARROW

There’s a thin crack in my coffee cup, a scuff received by time

It fans in all directions like a scar from lightning’s bite

I can’t shake off the shadows, but I cling hard to the light

I was looking for a reason why my heart itches to fight

 

It eats at all my marrow, it carves away my mind

My bravery is compromised, my fear has made me blind

 

It says easy tiger, you’ll get it next time around

Your silver bones, you’ll give em back to the ground

Those easy winters never get written down

It’s decimation, it breaks us inside and out

Breaks us inside and out

 

I was born in fever, little-fisted, little rage

I fought through a thunderhead to reach a fragile age

Coughed up all my memories til they crumpled up like shame

They begged to be a part of me and begged to have a name

 

They ate at all my marrow, they carved away my mind

My bravery was compromised, my fear had made me blind

 

They said easy tiger, you’ll get it next time around

Your silver bones, you’ll give em back to the ground

Those easy winters never get written down

It’s decimation, it breaks us inside and out

 

Breaks us inside and out…

 

I follow Ariadne’s Thread until I fall apart

Paper bags for lungs, a broken kickdrum for a heart

I seem full of life, but Mother Nature takes her toll

She’ll take what she wants, and in a way she’ll leave you whole

 

She ate at all my marrow, she carved away my mind

And all my fears were compromised, I left em all behind

 

She said easy tiger, you’ll get it next time around

Your silver bones, you’ll give em back to the ground

Those easy winters never get written down

It’s decimation, it breaks us inside and out

Breaks us inside and out, breaks us inside and out

 

 

COUNT THE RINGS

I’m packing the car and then I’m leaving

I’m giving myself some time for grieving

Gonna take a drive to Tennessee to heal the broken parts of me

Gonna try to find out what I want and what I need

 

Shadows tend to grow when I’m all alone

Every ringing phone, I let it hang like smoke

Truth is like a little pill, deep down I know

It’s hard to swallow, sometimes I’d rather choke

If what I want is always out of reach, it’s cause I let it waste away in me

Cut me down and count the rings

 

I haven’t forgotten what’s behind me

A mountain of things that need forgiving

But every time I try to turn around, I know I’m letting myself down

So I’m following the signs that guide me to the next town

 

Shadows tend to grow when I’m all alone

Every ringing phone, I let it hang like smoke

Truth is like a little pill, deep down I know

It’s hard to swallow, sometimes I’d rather choke

If what I want is always out of reach, it’s cause I let it waste away in me

Cut me down and count the rings

 

I’m tired of waiting for a reason (chance to be)

I’m ready for something to believe in (a different dream)

Cause even in my sleep I feel the change coming

I know I can’t erase it, I know I’ve gotta chase it

 

Shadows tend to grow when I’m all alone

Every ringing phone, I let it hang like smoke

Truth is like a little pill, deep down I know

It’s hard to swallow, sometimes I’d rather choke

If what I want is always out of reach, it’s cause I let it waste away in me

Cut me down and count the rings

Cut me down and count the rings

Cut me down and count the rings

 

 

THE LINE

When I sing these words into an empty room

I’m not sure if they will even make a sound

If I burn my paper courage, if I sew it in the ground

Will the ashes yield a seed to work around

 

There’s a hollow that once held a sense of youth

A little patch of light I learned to cut in two

To cash it in for something wiser, I just want a little truth

For every fire and flood that feeds a deeper wound

 

It used to be like a creek, flowing from a summit I could never see

Now it’s frozen dry, carving lines around my eyes

Tracing knots along my spine

It’s so hard to find the time to let it breathe

To find the line between the truth and the belief

 

War is young in terms of time but it’s got teeth

Tearing families and futures at the seams

Be it oil or gold or water, we will always treasure greed

We won’t bite the dying hand of history

 

To my friends who think you’ll save yourself some time

Because your confidence has withered up and died

You are more than what you carry, you are more than what you hide

You will never know how much you leave behind

 

It used to be like a creek, flowing from a summit I could never see

Now it’s frozen dry, carving lines around my eyes

Tracing knots along my spine

It’s so hard to find the time to let it breathe

To find the line between the truth and the belief

 

Every day dies in convulsion, I gotta smile away my pride

But my nerves are buzzing rhythms like defective power lines

Burning holes into my memory, streaming smoke into the sky

One day we’ll talk about what stars used to be like

 

It used to be like a creek, flowing from a summit I could never see

Now it’s frozen dry, carving lines around my eyes

Tracing knots along my spine

It’s so hard to find the time to let it breathe

To find the line between the truth and the belief

 

 

DAMASCUS BLADES

Take the poem out of everything

Rusted out radio towers, skeleton swings

Chew on every wise thought

If you don’t taste the truth then there’s a lie that you forgot

 

Just to feel alive, you set the bar so high

 

The past will fade, or fold up like damascus blades

Your callused hands, read them like you haven’t got a plan

Just thriving with the day

 

Take your tea and drink it down

We know about it all, this whispering willow of a town

Nothing wrong with the pouring rain

No flaw in a wildfire if you know what you’ve gained

 

Just to feel alive, you set the bar so high

 

The past will fade, or fold up like damascus blades

Your callused hands, read them like you haven’t got a plan

Just thriving with the day

 

Just to feel alive, you set the bar so high

To swing above the rest, with failure in your chest

 

Nevermind the broken dreams

You’ll stitch together new ones from the wreckage of defeat

And when they ask why you made the change

You’ll just smile and point out all that still remains

 

Just to feel alive, you set the bar so high

 

The past will fade, or fold up like damascus blades

Your callused hands, read them like you haven’t got a plan

Just thriving with the day

 

 

SLOW AND STEADY

The sun has broke across the sky

Soft like egg yolk, burning my eye

Foot on the gas, am I too late

She’s still at home, I’m still halfway

 

In three hours I’ll be by her side

To say hello before she says goodbye

 

Slow and steady, you still have time, you still have time

Hold on for me, you still have time, you still have time

 

Hands on the wheel, the minutes creep

Knuckles like steel, I’m in too deep

I can’t admit, I’m not that strong

I’ll process it after she’s gone

 

In two hours I’ll be by her side

To say hello before she says goodbye

 

Slow and steady, you still have time, you still have time

Hold on for me, you still have time, you still have time

 

The clock will spite me, but I’ll never quit

Even if the wheels fall flat, even if I have to sprint

I said I’d be there, and I meant it

 

Slow and steady, you still have time, you still have time

Hold on for me, you still have time, you still have time

You still have time, you still have time

 

 

CITYVIEW

There’s something unnerving about the way nobody laughs when you peel back the past

Looking straight out in your hospital gown at the skyline that’s staring right back

Birds on a wire, bloody sun, burning tires, all the baggage you haven’t unpacked

People check watches, their movements so cautious, the beauty just falls through the cracks

 

Beyond the eyes and the trains and the angels

The arrows and the marigold, the junk you never sold

All the laughter, the breath that comes after,

A silvery voice in the wind, sayin “Keep going, you’ll find it again.”

 

Quarterlife crisis, you crumble to vices, the bottle ends up in your hand

Glass on the ground as your engine breaks down and the sirens scream out like the damned

Travel the country, your clothes are disgusting, the Greyhound is running its race

Don’t look in the window, cause you and I both know you can’t bear to see your own face

 

Beyond the eyes and the trains and the angels

The arrows and the marigold, the junk you never sold

All the laughter, the breath that comes after,

A silvery voice in the wind, sayin “Keep going, you’ll find it again.”

 

The birth of a daughter just makes you a father like a crown of thorns makes you a king

The wedding was a fever dream, you did it for your self-esteem, it melted the wax on your wings

It creeps in the corners, you keep looking forward, your daughter won’t answer the phone

And who knew that leaving would just leave you bleeding, cause no one likes being alone

 

End of the line and you’re seeing the signs, yellow eyes and a sense of relief

A garden of memory and half of a century, you know now that time is a thief

And all of your apologies can’t fix a tattered tapestry, the pain’s woven in like a thread

And she will do great things, and you will be watching from your cityview hospital bed

Sayin keep going, you’ll find it

 

 

 

FRACTALS

Spring will come when you least expect it

And with it, water wavers in thin sheets of ice

The comfort comes eventually if you make your first step precise

 

Don’t believe it til you see the sun that’s up before I am

Fractals fracture and proliferate with veins that feed the plants

and carve out canyons as they tessellate

 

It’s mosquito season again, would you rather stay inside or be eaten alive?

It’s mosquito season again, would you rather stay inside or be eaten alive?

 

I collect bee stings like my keyrings

And wear them on a rose gold chain

I display them like I hate them but deep down I’m proud of pain

 

It’s mosquito season again, would you rather stay inside or be eaten alive?

It’s mosquito season again, would you rather stay inside or be eaten alive?

 

Like reprise follows the freeze

See how high the hornets build their nests

Now it’s quiet while we wait to see how high the snow will rest

 

It’s mosquito season again, would you rather stay inside or be eaten alive?

It’s mosquito season again, would you rather stay inside?

 

 

WASTE

The dirt in the landfill, it’s pushing up daisies

I’m pushing down pedals to make my way home

Down in the valley, they’re kicking up salt

Licking the wounds of a war over mounds of asphalt

 

Both sides pitching lies to their kin, sheltering words with their spin

If you think that it’s broken now, well it’s just breaking in

 

It goes to waste, it goes to waste

It goes to waste, it goes to waste

 

I wrote a letter, it got lost in the noise

But I’ll make a new path in the aftermath of the destroyed

It’s getting cloudy, but now I love the rain

If everyone’s linked, then nobody’s weak on this chain

 

Both sides pitching lies to their kin, sheltering words with their spin

If you think that it’s broken now, well it’s just breaking in

 

It goes to waste, it goes to waste

It goes to waste, it goes to waste

It goes two ways, it goes two ways

It goes two ways, it goes two ways

 

Going, going, going, gone, going, going, going, gone, going, going, going, gone

Going, going, going, gone, going, going, going, gone, going, going, going, gone

Going, going, going, gone, going, going, going, gone, going, going, going, gone

Going, going, going, gone, going, going, going, gone, going, going, going, gone

 

It goes to waste, it goes to waste

It goes to waste, it goes to waste

It goes two ways, it goes two ways

It goes two ways, it goes to waste

 

 

SIMPLE TERMS

I’ve got a bloodshot eye upon the night

Sunlight and fog and all the certainties of time

This Ship of Theseus with structural integrity

My pieces fall apart, I don’t know what will become of me

 

Digging through old journals just to find out how I feel

Like I can’t remember what determines if I’m real

A veteran multitool, the stories that I left behind

Each breath I’ve lost is just exhaust for the beating heart inside

 

And I don’t wanna waste my time watching my life burn up

I don’t wanna waste my time waiting for a hero to turn up

I don’t wanna waste my time pretending that I’m fine

When there’s no finish line, it’s a race against the lie

 

Damp cold, the road pulls winter’s coat on sleeve by sleeve

Pain carves the tracks of all the evil in my dreams

When I park at stations, all I see are stranger’s eyes on me

I wonder when my racing thoughts will ever let me sleep

 

Cause I don’t wanna waste my time watching my life burn up

I don’t wanna waste my time waiting for a hero to turn up

I don’t wanna waste my time pretending that I’m fine

When there’s no finish line, it’s a race against the lie

 

And I admit, the couch I sit in does accommodate

The feeling grates, I hate the way it hefts my weight

And you, on the other side, your eyes like knives

You carve the complex of my mind into simple terms, as if that’s what I’m worth

 

And I don’t wanna waste my time, watching my life burn up

I don’t wanna waste my time waiting for a hero to turn up

I don’t wanna waste my time letting the dust pile up

I don’t wanna waste my time pretending that I’m fine

When there’s no finish line, it’s a race against the lie